wouldnt life be so much easier if someone made a book on "How To's.."??? no one would ever have to waste his or her time thinking about how to pass his or her killer math test, how to keep her weight off, how to persuade his parents to allow him to drive to school,how to get a new cellphone without having to spend anything(dream on!) and the list just goes on and on...damn,how i wish there was an article written on "How to Make You Fall in Love With Me in 15 Days" but then again...im dreaming...there's no article and no damn book to begin with...nyeta...

hay...
what if you found out that the guy you really like dates every freaking girl he meets?!?!?!

kakapikon noh..

its like being in a fairy tale wherein everything seems to be perfect until one day you wake up and find out that it was all just part of a big collection of freaking fairy tales he wanted to star as "prine charming" in..

damn!!hahaha!!

hmm...

wait nga!!!did i just say LIKE?!??!?!damn,i really should get over him...LIKED is more like it..

and nako..I AM OVER HIM!!!im just making kwento about what i found out..

crap!!

hay...

im so pathetic!!!

i came across this thing on the internet..it made me think after i read it..may point yung nagsulat..but the question is...paano ka makakasiguro that the one who you think is right for you really is the one meant for you?eto pa..if you take the risk for that someone,will it all be worth it?hay...hirap talaga ng life...full of uncertainties..tsk tsk tsk...

ABOUT LOVE

Nakakatawa how one falls in love then falls out
of it...
It's funny rin how one would die looking for it,
while one would just let it die...
It's ridiculous how each and everyone of us is
very much affected by love...
And it's a wonder how everyone lives because of
LOVE...

Well, here is a story...In a dream, GOD told me,
that I could pick up any man I like from His
field. BUT I have to choose only one. Once na
nakapili na ako, I have to raise my hand as a
signal that I finally found him, then go back to
GOD for praise. But NO!!! May isa pang
kondisyon -- I could never turn back. Once
nalampasan ko, I should move on. So sabi ko,
GOD surely won't give me rotten crops of men. I
have been a good daughter and I deserve to be
with a good man. I was confident I'll get the
best pick.

So my journey began. As I went through the
field, nakita ko ang iba't ibang klase ng
lalake. Some were tempting me to pick them up.
And some were indeed tempting to pick up. Pero
sabi ko, baka may mas gwapo, mas mabait, mas
matalino, mas masipag, mas mahal ako sa dulo ng
field na ito. So I let go. Once. Twice. Thrice.
I believed fervently that in the end of the
field is my prince, waiting for me with open
arms. Then I saw a man. He looked at me straight
in the eye and blew a kiss. Our gazes met and I
don't know why, pero there was something in him
that I longed for. I felt as if something was
drawing me to him. Pero di pwede. I have to
make it to the end of the field. Baka sabihin ni
God, atat ako chaka wala akong patience. Naisip
ko If habang lumalayo ako, nakakakita ako ng
ganitong klase ng lalake, baka as I move further
eh may mas hihigit pa sa kanya. Until, I reached
the end of the field. And wala akong nakita!!!

GOD asked me, "Di ba napakakulit mo, araw-araw
na ginawa ng Diyos...ay, ako pala yun... eh
nananalangin ka na magkaroon ng
perfect partner in life, bakit ngayon wala kang
dala. My crops are all fresh and good. There is
nothing there not ready and
good for picking." I answered, "I thought I
would see someone at the end of the field. Eh
dyuskupo, wala na pala. I thought that each
step I took brought me closer to perfection when
in fact, each step brought me closer to
nothingness. I remembered that man who was
looking at me. I know he's the one but I let him
go, believing na there's someone better at the
end of the field. Oh, darn it!"

God said, "I'm sorry my child, but I have given
you enough time to choose. You should face
reality and its consequences." With my head
bowed down I said, "I'm sorry I wasn't brave
enough to raise my hand in the middle of the
field and commit myself to someone. I was not
ready to face the challenges of life with
someone I thought was of lesser value than
me...I'm
sorry."

Nagising akong umiiyak, saying sorry to GOD and
feeling sorry for my self and my life. Then I
realized that GOD is giving me another chance
to choose but not in His field but in the field
of uncertainty. Now, I'm thinking about that man
in the field, the man I felt was for me,
wondering what might have been if I raised my
hand the moment I saw him. Then it hit me. What
is the meaning of all my hardship to be
successful and wealthy? I may become the most
powerful and successful person on earth but if
I don't have that someone whom will I share my
love and happiness with, then it will not be
worth anything.

Para sa ating lahat 'to. Think about it. We are
not getting any younger. Explore GOD's field.
I'm sure nandyan lang sya sa tabi-tabi. Maaring
in the beginning, in the middle or in the end.
It's for you to find out. But most importantly,
it's for you to choose. It's a part of the
whole concept of love. It's a risk you have to
take, a decision you have to make. And once
you have decided on it, there's no turning back.
Bear in mind that with this comes the courage to
raise your hand and declare that you've found
your match, whether you're at the beginning, in
the middle or at the end of your journey. Or
else, you'll regret it.

At ang huling phase ng lahat ng yan eh ito lang -
- once you've raised your hand, go back to God
and thank Him. In short, maging kontento ka sa
napili mo. Ikaw naman ang pumili nyan eh. All He
did was to give you options. And since He gave
you that privilege, consider it a blessing.

moments are all that i have in my head

i keep on playing them back just to make myself feel that way again...

queso na naman ako...

ilang beses ko ng sinubukang isulat ang nararamdaman ko.
ilang ulit ko na rin itong isinawalang bahala.
akala ko na pagkinimkim ko ang lahat ng aking nadarama, mawawala na lang ito ng kusa.
pero hindi pala.

maraming bagay sa buhay ko ang aking pinagsisihan na hindi ko ginawa.
marami rin na ako'y pinanghinayangan dahil nawala.
maraming "what ifs". maraming "ay, sayang..."
sa dami nila, natutunan ko ng ibaon na lang sila sa limot.
mahirap kasi. mas mabuti pang pabayaan mo na lang na mawala kesa naman isipin mo masyado at hayaan lang na guluhin nito ang buhay mo.

sinubukan ko ng kalimutan.
pero pucha.
bumalik ka pa.

ayos na ko e.
ok na lang sakin na bigla kang nawala.
ano pa nga ba naman ang magagawa ko kung pinili mong magliwaliw at iwan ako?

bilib ako sayo.
pagkatapos mong biglaang maglaho, biglaan ka rin bumalik.
oo, masaya ako na malamang buhay ka pa pala at naalala mo rin ako pagkatapos ng nakagugulat mong paglisan.
oo, natutuwa ako na, kahit hindi man kasing dalas ng dati, naalala mo akong tawagan o itext man lang.
pero bakit pa?
bakit ka pa nga ba bumalik?

PUNYETA!

hindi mo alam?
anong hindi mo alam?
sorry?
bakit?
ano ba talagang gusto mo?
hindi mo rin alam?

ANAK NG TINAPA!

pakiramdam mo yata ako si madam auring na kayang hulaan lahat ng bugtong na pinapahula mo sakin.
hoy! wala po akong bolang kristal para malaman kung anong nasa loob ng buhol buhol mong utak!

ANG LABO MO!!!!

GULONG-GULO UTAK KO!!!!

ahay...nako po!bat ko nga ba hinahayaang ganyanin mo ang buhay kong dapat ay nasa ayos na...nananahimik ako at eto ka namang pilit na nanggugulo.
sa totoo lang, hindi ko alam kung dapat ko tong isipin. mukha akong gaga. alam ko. baka hindi man lang nga ako sumasagi sa utak mo e.

pero alam mo, ayos lang. aantayin ko na lang kung san man ako ihipin ng hangin. bahala na lang. kahit nakakatakot.

takot na akong umasa. pagod na akong magantay.

sa hinaba-haba ng sinabi ko, hindi ko alam kung tama ba itong nararamdaman ko. pucha, e ano bang pakialam niyo?!?! e ganito talaga nasa loob ng puso ko.

ok lang...magaantay na lang ako...ewan ko kung hanggang kelan...ewan ko kung hanggang saan ang makakaya ko...ni hindi ko nga rin alam kung anong inaantay ko...pero sige lang...kaya ko pa naman...

aantayin na lang kita...baka sakaling balang araw maging akin ka...

you're so vain.....i bet you think this is about you